There is always a reason for everything. I know that, but I just cannot understand those reasons. It just felt more painful each time mummy calls. With every call, everything seems to be changing. But at least I got an answer I wanted. I helped mummy pay the bills today. I stood at the AXS machine for like 30 minutes. Because I don’t know how to use it. Everytime someone comes behind me I’ll just cancel the thing and let that person use first. And I finally got it right. Projects are really killing me. i'm drowning.有谁看穿我的笑脸?