my tummy is pain pain pain! rawr. neber eat much today. sian. today saw wendy and xue er. hahas. sian sian!! i am tired like shit. everyday standing. rawr! but used to it alrdy la. dar jia you jia you! you can do it de. just put in more hard work jiu can le.

i just went out decorating the flowers outside my hse with mummy! it wasnt fun at all. stupid flowers keep pocking me. but well new year is coming so must put nice nice. with all the fluffy things.

what have i done wrong?! why is everyone scolding me at this time? i neber do wrong! i just fucking forget bcoz i have to help your mother do sth. get it? stop scolding me!

stop it stop it!

it's not good to get this kind of results. i noe there will always be someone who will be worse den me but it still doesnt help at all. i'm not suppose to cry or whine bout my results. coz nobody will let me. i have studied really hard and i noe i have given my best. hours spending sitting on chairs with piles of books in front of me doesnt really help ya? i felt like i have waste my mum's money for the few mth of tuition at my aunt's place. but what done has alrdy been done. and i really have done my very best. even if i want to whine now there isnt really someone to hear me whine. bcoz as they all say it isnt really that bad. but to the person who sat for 6hr straight chiong-ing for sci and maths it really is bad. i tot i could at least get an A for c.sci but it turned out the wrong way.

anyway it's all over i will definitely work harder in poly. i dun want to choose my career now. choosing courses in poly seems to be like deciding what my career to be like. i dun want. what if i made a mistake? what if i grow up and never wan to do sth related to my course? what if i screw my whole life just liddat? what am i suppose to do? if i was cleverer i would have definitely go into a jc and study real hard. but i am not! everyone and anyone who sees me always say the same thing. dun go jc you not suitable. i oso noe i not suitable. but i dun want to choose my career now. coz the course i desire doesnt allow me to get in. what should i do?

omg omg!! RESULTS WILL BE OUT ON THURS!

i am so dead! that eileen still say wan go eat breakfast and shop before that! hahas. she's a crazy girl! LOL.

love isnt finding someone you can live with.

it's finding someone you cant live without.

yayyy! tmr going shopping with eileen amanda cs and kailing! working at bugis has it's own advantage. LOL. i can buy clothes cheaper den usual. rawr! i'm at they kiss again! i just finished romantic princess! got so many dramas!! teaching tuition seems cool. my cousin going to teach a pri4 student. but the pay isnt beri good lor. 4subj only 15obucks! cheap like nth. but hopefully she can get a korean kid! hahas. coz her friends got to teach korean kids. i miss darling so much!

some guy came into our shop and pierce his nipples! it's like omg x 3464578362!! tattoo, belly piercing, tongue piercing all seems okie but nipples. rawr. and it's both sides. sian. results are coming out soon. i have totally no confidence. later going pennisular. rawr i need slp!

i noe everyone has their own faults. i have mine too and i will change. these few days made ppl worried really feel so sorry. everything i do doesnt go into my brain. probably i dun even have a brain. sorry everyone!

it doesnt matter anymore whether you are treating me fairly or not. it doesnt matter so much anymore. it's numb alrdy. all i wan is him and he's there. so nth matters anymore.

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
Forever baby, I'll remember you

You say you're falling apart

Reached the end of the line

Just looking for your place in an ordinary life

No one calls you friend

No one even knows your name

You just want to feel loved instead of all the pain

You no longer have to say

No one's listening anyway

Come here and cry on my shoulder

I'll hold you 'til it's over

I'll rescue you tonight

Let my arms be your shelter

Your hiding place forever

I love you more than life

both of you knew you treated us differently. both of you knew i was always on the unfair side. both of you knew you treted her far far better than me. but both of you think that i should always give in to her. whats with being the older one? being the older one must be the understanding one? couldnt you give in to me sometimes? no matter how rude she is, no matter how much you say the next time she is rude you are going to slap her, you knew you will never do that. i cannot even be rude once in awhile. but i dont care. dont you feel these few days i'm very rude to both of you? you can scold me all you want but it doesnt help. why must both of you only think of her? why is it always HER HER HER? even when i'm in china all your mind think is what to buy for her. i didnt even bought anything. she went kl bought so many things but absolutely none of it is mine. why? if money can buy time, you owe me alot. thats what my cousin told me. but you know what money can never buy time. no matter how much you gave me it can never buy back the time i lost. i rather spend my own hard earn money.