hahas. i will start studying hard from today onwards. i just came back from chem lesson. so tired. but gotta go out for tuition again. sian. hahas. today in fnn i cooked until my shirt and skirt kena the pasta. so dirty. and that eileen dumdum say i dunno how to cook. but at least i can cook. not like someone leh!! hahas. i gonna kill eileen tay if i have a knife. she go tell mr khoo to see wee take my box. ahh!! make me so embarassed!! now the whole hmt class noe le la. hahas. i will kill her. eileen tay! you dum pig. ytd take my pic den dun return. today worse la. go tell mr khoo. ytd i not angry. but today i beri beri angry!! hahas. ( how i can be angry with my eileen dear?) like real leh. hahas. eee going out for tuition le. hahas.

i must believe him!! must have faith in him. he say not your fault means not your fault. he say he will study means he really will. coz he promise you. stupid girl go cry in class for what. really is a dumdum. i believe he really will work hard this time round de. we will fight this battle together. study hard. i will always be by your side dear. you can do it de. i am sure. dun ever give up hope now. i noe you are feeling beri low even if you say you are not. but cheer up okie! i love you always!! i really stupid leh. cant slp den wake up blog. hahas. den only 3am sia. coz i guess i am oso beri sad lor. cant help but feel sad. the sec4 get back all those marks. some are sad some are happy. haix. life is just like this.

what a hug can do?
a hug can say " i'll miss you" or " i'll be thinking of you." it can say " you're someone special" and best of all " i love you."it can soothe a hurt or calm a fear. it can cheer us up when we are blue. it almost seems a miracle all the things a hug can do.

i am like damn sad can. how can she say that to me la. like everything is my fault. buy presents for the seniors is right what. not like everyday buy for them. and it's just 3bucks. must she say until like my fault that she needs to pay. i have put so much effort into this farewell thing. and she quarrel with jianjun oso my fault la??!! she say i neber tell her b4 that. but i did tell jianjun to tell them what. she quarrel with him oso my fault. fine lor. den i say sorry la. what you wan me to do?? ahh!! these few days like beri blurr leh. hahas. mr khoo go tell ms yap bout me and wee. sian. the conversation was like this.
mr khoo: hey. wee sheng got gf le right.
ms yap: huh? why i dunno. who is the girl?
mr khoo: from higher mt de. 3e4.
and it stop. omg. if i dun admit mr khoo gonna go tell ms chua. den i am dead. ahh. hahas. what shld i do. i gonna have fun today. i am not caring bout anything from 5 to 9. i will miss my seniors alot!! i love them.

hahas. i talking to WanTing. so fun!! so long neber talk to her le. i will miss her so much leh!! i made her wear pyjamas for tmr the farewel night. hahas. so fun. hahahas. ahh i not enough wrapping paper to wrap those presents leh!! she keep scolding me de. hahas. but let her scold lor. last time le. hahas. chou wanton. LOL. i will miss my KING.

hahas. i am back from buying the seniors presents with elaine and jianjun!! woots! finally bought sth. hahas. farewell night is on fri. time passed so fast. they are leaving us soon. i am so sad. haix. but we are going to have great fun on fir i guess. hahas. went to yamaha to buy swap which my junior wants me to help her buy. but no stock le. been looking for it for a very long time. hahas. den we went toysRrus. that jian jun so childish de. hahas. as childish as me! LOL. we took the sword and started fighting. and elaine can do nth except calling us childish. LOL!! jianjun is the most childish de lor. hahas. den we went over to minitoons. me and elaine keep fighting over who gets the piglet or eeyor. in the end she win. wanting gets eeyor. piglet is so cute lor. cant help but hug it. hahas. den elaine fight with me again. who gets the cow or seal. she won again. eee. that pohjay anyhow sae de lor. how can elaine win. hahas. and i have to wrap those presents!! ahh! hahas.
dar dar say his poa fail le. my fault lor. shldnt have let him pei me go hm ytd. in the end neber study. haix. i am so sorry.

hahas. i am NOT doing my cme proj. hahas. after so long i still haben do. hahas. i miss my dardar. i think he is slping now. LOL. zhu zhu. sian leh later got tuition. den must go myself more sian leh. hahas. my kor is at the bird park now. lucky i neber go. ytd go sentosa i oso neber go. wahaha. he going back tmr at 4am leh. i will miss him lor. *sob* i am not allow to send him. so sad. haix. he treat me so good leh. bought me another 72boxes of gum. wahaha. gonna chew till my teeth drop. LOL. i seriously will miss him de. hahas. i gonna go do proj le. KL scold me. hahas. and i got back my report slip!! woots!! i failed emaths only. eng:57.3, emaths:47.8, amaths:58.6, f&n:81, hmt:59.6, comb sci:58.3, comb human:5o.5. i am glad that most of my subj i win kor except maths lor.

hahas. i am in sch now. shld be doing the home econ de thing but i am so so slack. LOL. lazy to do now sia. hahas. dun care bahx. hahas. dardar having his maths paper now. ohh he must pass coz he say the p1 he fail le. hope he really can pass bahx. hahas. i so happy leh. hahas. my report slip only fail one subj but is emaths leh. first time fail. hahas. but beri happy alrdy. used to fail 4subj de. got improve le. yay. i must study hard now. my hmt and human are improving too! hahas. ms lee cm scold le. hahas. gotta go do sth liao. haix. later ms ng coming check our ws and i haben finish mine!!! i miss my darling. work hard dear!! good luck. 15pts hor. hahas.
Nobody but me, could know the way I feel
And I wish I could be stronger
No longer afraid

hahas. now is 745 le but i am still at home. LOL. later got doc app la. hahas. sian i miss so many school days bcoz of those doc app. ytd dardar go pei me at tuition there. his head suddenly giddy xia si wo le. hai hao mei shi le. hahas. sian ahh!! haix. i gonna go bath now. if not jiu late liao. hahas. well those who are taking prelims de, GOOD LUCK!! and dardar rmb 15pts. hahas. you can do it de. jia you. neber say die before you try!!

ahh!! today had interactive day. hahas. so fun. thanks to sofie i'm wet. he cheat de lor. fill the pail and splash it on me when the game is only water bomb. hahas. but everybody started doing that. had fun looking at those exco members splahing erhao. hahas. and the most idiotic thing is i didnt get to change until just now!! my mother luh. go out and dun let me go hm change. eee. hahas. but at least i change my shirt. hahas.
i'm sorry i made you felt useless. but you broke your promise. you promise to protect me and neber hurt me anymore. but you broke it by saying all those. it hurts. it really does. my tears keep rolling down. but i aint sad. it just keep rolling. i wipe it away it falls again. but at least i neber go out into the rain to cry. bcoz i promise you i will neber walk in the rain anymore.

How do I get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be
Oh I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live
Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, oh Baby, I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live
Please tell me baby
How do I go on
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know that you're everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live
how do I live without you
how do I live without you baby
how do I live....

ytd night been hugging kor gave me de piglet. realise that when i am sad its always him who comfort me. but he is away on a holiday now. i think i have lose him. he used to tell me 'Living is meaningful and full of happiness if i find the purpose of living and loving. i am just taking what life gives me and not making changes to it.' but i have tried doing that. it doesnt work.
fine i apologise. if it's bcoz of that missed call. but you must noe that that idiotic phone is in my bag and i dun even noe it rang. when i saw it i was back in school alrdy. and it was way after you walked out of school without talking to me. i was in the ava le. you expect me to call? i tot you going hm when you say you dun wan go for geo mah. well i'm sorry then.
i have been talking to ben again. LOL. he cheers me up i guess. he has been taking up the place kor left. he really brighten my day. ytd i cheer him up today is his turn. well i guess baby going say he is jealous. but seriously like you treat vann as a mei. i treat him as a kor.

going under
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50,000 tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Going under
Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once, wake up for once
Not tormented daily, defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through, I'm
Going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through, I'm
So go on and scream
Scream at me, I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through, I'm
Going under
Going under
I'm going under

my immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

love is true
Never in my life have i wanted anyone as much as you
my love is true and i will give up everything in my life so you can stay with me (yeaheee)
Never in my life have i wanted anyone as much as you
my love is true and i will give up everything in my life so you can stay with me (yeaheee) Everything we do together Im gona cherish in my heart 'coz i love you and i said so
Made a promise to myself That i will never let you go
And i promise i will never hurt you
I always try to be the one who's right
But in the end you were right and i was wrong 'Coz girl im gona miss you 'coz deep inside i know i love you
Never in my life have i wanted anyone as much as you
my love is true and i will give up everything in my life so you can stay with me (yeaheee)
Never in my life have i wanted anyone as much as you
my love is true and i will give up everything in my life so you can stay with me (yeaheee)
I've always tried to be my best to there for you
In your times of need when you was crying all alone girl
It breaks my heart when i see you cry
Should another tear drop from your eye
A lovers guide to perfection
All you have to do is open up and just take your time
Girl im gona miss you 'coz deep inside you know i love you
Never in my life have i wanted anyone as much as you
my love is true and i will give up everything in my life so you can stay with me (yeaheee)
Never in my life have i wanted anyone as much as you
my love is true and i will give up everything in my life so you can stay with me (yeaheee)
Im gona miss you Sing it again Im gona miss you Im gona miss you Sing it again Im gona miss you
Never in my life have i wanted anyone as much as you
my love is true and i will give up everything in my life so you can stay with me (yeaheee)
Never in my life have i wanted anyone as much as you
my love is true and i will give up everything in my life so you can stay with me (yeaheee)

argh i wan my sleep!! ytd my neighbour was singing in the middle of the night make me cant slp. eee. so tired now. but gonna go sch for band. sian leh. today go band from 9 to 1o. den 1o to 12 got hmt. coz my chinese like shit must go for extra class. den 12 go back band till 1. den still got geo from 1 to 3!! ahh!! am i going to survive today. and mayb i might be going to pull my bones when i come back. idiot bones. make me suffer. hahas. sian leh.
i miss you like crazy. am i going to survive without you. dun ever leave me, will you?
116hearts
i am back from band, hmt and geo. sian. so tired. i am sick and tired of everything. argh!! now is 4pm. i gonna go slp without having anybody disturbing me.
love has crumbled this month.
lovers separating.
though some old flames rekindle but it's depressing enough.
months of love and "poof" everything's gone.
they love their guys yet the guys doesn't appreciate it.
why go into love when you say you're not suitable not ready not confident.
all these are just excuses.
my darling andrea: this is right.
116hearts

hahas. i haben been blogging for so so long. LOL. those few days were a disaster for me. was so so so sad. haix. but everything is over bcoz of a hug. hahas. dar just wake me up. but i was up quite some time le. LOL. 8am den call me. hahas. lucky i woke up myself. wahaha. at least i am not a zhu zhu! sian. later got oral leh. i'm scare. hahas. must try my best. (: i miss him!! LOL. how many days neber see him le? ahh! going crazy. hahas.
98hearts
i am back from oral. now is 2.oopm hahas. sian i think i flunk it. the cher say if i continue like this i will fail. so shld be fail le la. LOL. my first impression oso gone le lor. neber wear nametag. am i idiot or what. hahas. marvin is an idiot. LOL. i wish him happy bdae he still call me idiot sia. still say i evil. i gave him present lor. hahas. a slap. LOL.he beri bad leh. call me bai chi. siao de. dun ever wan to tok to him le.
1oohearts

As i sit and daydream
I can see you in my mind
I wonder when i can be yours
really in the heart
I love you deep down in my heart.
are we drifting further and further away? i dun wanna lose you.
i say it's all ok and everything is fine. but i hold a secret, behind this crooked smile. i'm not alright. i'm hurting too badly to understand, acting like i'm happy and putting on an act. being watched day by day knowing the pressure is worse i feel like i have to mess up just to feel normal. sometimes i just don't want to be here. i sometimes wish i could close my eyes and everything would be better and there would be no more reasons to cry i know if i run, my heart will break more. no matter how much i try to cover it up, it will hurt worse than it did before. how can i trust that if i turn to you, my pain will be healed. can i know i will be alright and can i know that you will be my shield. i'm not alright and i don't want to live my life hiding and pretending i'm just fine when the truth is i'm dying inside. what a grand thing to be loved.