It's just me

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

就让我一个人静静摇摆

一段爱从不明白到明白

我的眼泪才慢慢流出来

#06 love at 12:18 AM

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Sunday, June 28, 2009

Tps is freaking 9 storey high. It's like higher den engine school la. Gladys, why aint we born later? :( The school is like so big can!

And hai sing catholic has got 1 teacher who got h1n1.

Went swimming early in the morning with sis, mummy, and aunt. After that headed to market to eat. It's been so long since I ate breakfast there. Because everytime is mummy go da bao back while I was happily sleeping. Throughout the whole day, I was really praying for a message to come. But no it didnt. I have to face it. 2 more weeks to complete. Can I make it?

一句话就好，说你喜欢我。

#06 love at 11:25 PM

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Saturday, June 27, 2009

累不累呀这问题我问了自己好几回

有时候啊谁孤独得想流泪

一个人啊就算坚强面对多少是与非

付出的呀也都被遗忘作废

#06 love at 1:07 AM

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Mummy: Can you don't do project on sunday? I want to go out with you and yaya (sis).
I know mummy needs us now more than anything. It's been so long since I went out with her. Felt so guilty. And whose fault was it?
Ate lots of durian and mangosteen just now. I hope I fall sick.

Projects only make friends fall out with each other. Everything will be fine.
Am I supposed to be happy or sad?

You don't love someone because he or she is perfect.

#06 love at 12:24 AM

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Friday, June 26, 2009

The star will not shine again.

#06 love at 1:02 AM

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Thursday, June 25, 2009

laoda don't emo le.

I shouldn't whine, shouldn't rant, shouldn't cry. Maybe you are right. I shouldn't keep thinking that I can't finish the project. I should look on the bright side. But that was easier said than done. I couldn't see what have we really done. Except all the research, what have we really done? I'm really afraid. I was relieved to hear raymond is coming back one week later again. But when I receive the msg that he is coming back next week, I can't help but panic.

Laoda: Things that don't kill us make us stronger. I think it is Things that don't kill us make us sadder.

No more fb, blog hopping. Just revit, revit and revit. It's my life. I have no idea why because of that 20% we rush until like it's our whole life and our whole life depend on that 20%. Raymond is scary. Will I manage to finish those 7 projects, or will I die first?

Give up and let go.

#06 love at 11:36 PM

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete. Delete. Don't delete.

Delete or don't delete? I'm a noob at it.

I'm the winner of the noob while gladys is the loser of the noobest-est.

Slept at 3plus yesterday and waking up at 6plus this morning. I need sleep! Wasn't really tired until law lesson. Learning all those penal code and sections of law is really boring. Couldn't keep my eyes open la. And I did some retarded things like borrowing stapler from the one stop service centre. After that den realise must bind the law project. How retarded can I be? Design's printing shop has lousy service. That's all I can conclude.

I LEARNT HOW TO PITCH A ROOF DURING SPLN! Can use it for my hut alrdy :))

Happy michel.

However strong we are, we can never fight fate.

#06 love at 11:30 PM

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Nobody bothers nobody cares. So why should I even bother to do all these by myself?

If gladys didnt even say law must hand in by tmr 12pm, I'll probably just miss the dateline. Because nobody bothered at all.

I've got 7 subjects. And 6 of it has projects. Damn it. 3 of it is due in the same week. How am I suppose to finish? I'm afraid. Really afraid that one day I really can't take it. I no longer look forward to the start of each new day.

I almost break down. Sorry for throwing the papers away.

#06 love at 12:35 AM

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Monday, June 22, 2009

Macha Milk

First day of school was tiring even though there is only fire safety lesson. Did space planning at concourse while waiting for dee. No mood no mood. Jessica and I totally had no mood to do it. But we have to hand in by Wednesday so no choice :(

Went Manpuku to celebrate our third year anniversary. The food there was not bad la. Except for the macha milk. It taste more like HL milk. And I hate milk!

:( Had a wonderful day. 3 years passed so quickly. Soon I'll be old :(

I have a feeling dee falls aslp alrdy. HAHA!

奇迹总爱考验坚持够不够.

#06 love at 10:37 PM

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Sunday, June 21, 2009

Spent the last day of my so-called holiday with dee. I slept and he played games. After that, we watched Benjamin Buttons. He watched halfway and fell aslp. Haha. Ya that show was very long and draggy. Thanks dee! He made a video for me as anniversary present :) I love you.

#06 love at 10:56 PM

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Saturday, June 20, 2009

Gladys and jess camping at laoda's house with retarded anqi.

ANQI SAID JAJA! I told you she's dumb.

JIAYOU LAODA/JESS/GLADYS/HUIMIN!

#06 love at 12:44 AM

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I wish that I can disappear from this earth immediately.

I don't want to stay here anymore. It's enough alrdy. I can no longer take it any longer.

Revit really sucks. It just can't stop popping the thing out. I'm getting really very irritated by it. I get really frustrated when I see it popping out. Re-installing doesn't help at all. Wanted to walk home today coz I'm really in a bad mood. But not with the lap top and books. It's too heavy for me to walk. I'm getting scare now. I'm afraid we won't finish irdd on time. Revit totally sucks.

3 more days. Yet I'm not in the mood. I'm sorry. :(

心灰意冷谁不会流泪?

#06 love at 12:27 AM

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Friday, June 19, 2009

MICHEL IS FEELING DAMN UNHAPPY NOW. BECAUSE SHE FORGOT EVERYTHING THAT SHE LEARNT IN HCDE. :((((

How to draw the freaking wall? Nobody seems to be online today. And people that are online doesn't know how to draw too. Oh man! How? I need to let irdd groupmates see it tmr and I cannot even manage to draw a wall! Why must revit be so hard to use? Somebody who knows and remember how to use revit please come online quickly! I'm praying hard.

Dee is back from soccer. The guys are at his house playing mahjong now. :( I miss him.

#06 love at 12:20 AM

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Thursday, June 18, 2009

revit sucks :(

Just got back from celebrating eng mgu's birthday with dee and his friends. 16 of us went to bedok 85 to have dinner. After that the guys went to play soccer. Stood there and watch them played. Left around 9 plus. It’s been so long since we went dating. :) I’m so glad that I’m independent and not demanding at all. I can walk to the bus stop even without dee sending me there. And even thought he uses all his strength to wrestle with me and it hurts like shit, I still love him as much. I always ended up crawling back into his arms. Miss him so. He’s probably still playing soccer or in simpang playing lan. Please msg me soon okay. Shall carry on with my revit. I totally forget how to use it alrdy.

Third year anniversary is coming in 4 days. And I haven't even prepare anything. I'm so sorry. It came at the wrong time seriously. Damn sian la. Monday is coming. Can it come slower? I need more time.

星空之下虔诚的许愿

#06 love at 9:45 PM

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Tuesday, June 16, 2009

No longer a bright star.

There is always a reason for everything.
I know that, but I just cannot understand those reasons. It just felt more painful each time mummy calls. With every call, everything seems to be changing. But at least I got an answer I wanted.

I helped mummy pay the bills today. I stood at the AXS machine for like 30 minutes. Because I don’t know how to use it. Everytime someone comes behind me I’ll just cancel the thing and let that person use first. And I finally got it right. Projects are really killing me. i'm drowning.

有谁看穿我的笑脸？

#06 love at 12:19 AM

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It takes two hands to clap.
You weren't even there for me.

And I curse the person who steal my shoes. Fuck. He/she stole my two converse shoes and a slipper. His/her hands better break and rot.

#06 love at 12:15 AM

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Monday, June 15, 2009

I think this is really nice.

I didn’t think that this day would come. Aunt asked me what I will do about this. I really cannot answer her. I didn’t know what to do, what to think. It felt like dropping from the top right to the bottom. It felt like I lost everything within that one day. I am really really disappointed. No mood to do anything. Why did this have to happen now? What am I suppose to do?

我一夜之间失去全部。

#06 love at 11:11 PM

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What should my reactions be? Agree to it or not?

I really don't know. Why is this even happening to me?

Don't ask me what to do, because I also don't know.

Mummy cheer up.

#06 love at 12:50 AM

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Sunday, June 14, 2009

Siling!

Amanda!

S.A.M.E

crazy woman!

Met up with fav girls on Saturday. Was really happy even thought it was just a small meet up to study. :)

Had this charity walk to stadium this morning. Aunt went to register our names and so we had to go early in the morning. So tired. Went home and sort of chat with my cousin. Was telling her about school stuffs la. And she explained all her experiences to me. She bought a book, girlfriendship. I think it’s really cool after reading the first two chapters. It talks about how best friends can be so comfortable with each other and how to manage all the problems between girlfriends. :)

You really made mummy very disappointed.

#06 love at 11:38 PM

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Friday, June 12, 2009

I'M HUNGRY NOW! serve myself right for skipping dinner.

Okay I guess I'm feeling better and so are you.

Don't sad, don't guilty.

but somewhere in that corner there is still guilt.

#06 love at 12:51 AM

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

The first one I picked. Miss Sunshine.

Didnt eat much dinner just now. I don't feel like eating. Anyway I need to go on diet. Sis and dee kept saying my legs are getting fatter. And I got poke by durians just now while helping aunt. I need to start on space planning again. I'm just being random.

Told dee about it. Okay I know I'm a bitch. I'm feeling guilty again.

I'm sorry. I don't wan to lose a friend just like that. Let's just forget about it okay. I'm sorry.

Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief.

#06 love at 11:32 PM

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For good times and bad times,

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for
Well, you came and opened me

And now there's so much more I see,

And so by the way I thank you.

#06 love at 1:01 AM

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Thanks alot chaishia!
You made me cry knowing that I've done something wrong.
Shutting up is the best choice from now on.

#06 love at 12:35 AM

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Wednesday, June 10, 2009

I did treasure.

It was totally wrong to have tell her. It was me who suck the most. Even if I really heard, it was totally wrong to have said it out. It's partly my fault. I can't face you anymore. It's really tiring to try and hide whatever feelings I have. Why are we all hiding? Think carefully before you speak and do anything. Why are we all doing this? Why has the world bcome such a scary place to be in?

是我做错了吗？

UYS teaches us to be responsible for our actions. Yes I'm feeling guilty now for causing such things to happen. I will just shut up next time if I know this is going to happen. You will read about this but probably won't even know that I'm talking about you. But I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen. I made you feel uncomfortable. I'm really sorry. Can all these stop? Stop hiding behind a mask.

握你的手，坚持到最后一秒钟。

#06 love at 11:29 PM

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Tuesday, June 09, 2009

little miss star.

Stars aint always bright and they can't brighten your day bcoz you cannot see them in the day. You will only see them at night. They will probably make you feel happy for that few hours before you sleep.

While walking home today, I had alot of feelings inside me. Luckily the music manage to drown some of the thoughts. Humans are really getting scary. Cousin was right to say never ever confide in someone unless you really trust them. It's amazing how anqi can understand jess so well. I wished for a friend like that. It's really hard to find a friend who really understands you. You don't even need to say anything, but they just can understand how you are feeling.

Star is no longer bright anymore.

Cause I'm lonely,

And I'm tired,

I'm missing you again.

#06 love at 11:30 PM

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Monday, June 08, 2009

JESSICA GOH HUI JUN IS THE BEST! love her to the max! :)))

Jessica. G.H.J if I could; I would. says:
*smart minds think alike
мϊcнεІ - [єІєνєи.sϊҳ] - ωεε [ XI•VI ]™ says:
*yay you are the first to call me smart!
*hoohoo
Jessica. G.H.J if I could; I would. says:
*yea
*im the first!!!
мϊcнεІ - [єІєνєи.sϊҳ] - ωεε [ XI•VI ]™ says:
*ya bcoz everyone says i'm dumb!
*lol!

Jessica. G.H.J if I could; I would. says:
*cos they are jealous that you are too smart, so they say you dumb. they just wanna affect you psychologically. so, dont get affected by them cos you got to believe and admit that you are the best & smartest!

#06 love at 11:57 PM

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Sunday, June 07, 2009

Fuck this world.

I have this feeling that I cannot take it anymore. Uncle is seriously too much alrdy. Since he cant get along with anyone, he has no right to ask ppl do according to what he wants. Just bcoz you need to go overseas doesnt mean that I need to help you work right? I've got my fair share of problems in school alrdy. Loads of projects waiting for me to complete. Don't even know whether I have the time to finish or not.

And YOU! Stop acting like you know everything. I've alrdy told you I have alot of projects to do. So just stop saying that I can plan my time. Blah Blah Blah. It's not about planning my time. It's about how much time I have. I don't think you deserve my respect at all.

And I just realise that up your service thing starts from 9 to 5! Wth. I waste like 2 days of the holiday!

#06 love at 10:05 PM

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Friday, June 05, 2009

Library with eileentay!
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STAR!

ANQI!

JESSICA!

Out studying with jess, huimin and anqi on Wednesday. :)

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Finally finish exams alrdy. How I hope exams will never end. Not because I like exams but because I don't want projects to come so soon. Don't want the deadline to come so soon. Totally burnt my two weeks break. This is the first time in my life that I don't feel happy at all after my exams. Not a single bit. I just hope that I won't die before this semester ends. Doing irdd project on Monday. I hope that we can finish on time.

AND MY SLIPPERS GOT STOLEN!

累了又能怎么办？

#06 love at 12:38 AM

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