it's not good to get this kind of results. i noe there will always be someone who will be worse den me but it still doesnt help at all. i'm not suppose to cry or whine bout my results. coz nobody will let me. i have studied really hard and i noe i have given my best. hours spending sitting on chairs with piles of books in front of me doesnt really help ya? i felt like i have waste my mum's money for the few mth of tuition at my aunt's place. but what done has alrdy been done. and i really have done my very best. even if i want to whine now there isnt really someone to hear me whine. bcoz as they all say it isnt really that bad. but to the person who sat for 6hr straight chiong-ing for sci and maths it really is bad. i tot i could at least get an A for c.sci but it turned out the wrong way.

anyway it's all over i will definitely work harder in poly. i dun want to choose my career now. choosing courses in poly seems to be like deciding what my career to be like. i dun want. what if i made a mistake? what if i grow up and never wan to do sth related to my course? what if i screw my whole life just liddat? what am i suppose to do? if i was cleverer i would have definitely go into a jc and study real hard. but i am not! everyone and anyone who sees me always say the same thing. dun go jc you not suitable. i oso noe i not suitable. but i dun want to choose my career now. coz the course i desire doesnt allow me to get in. what should i do?