I miss my cousin so much. I guess what she said was right. If the weekends neber see each other wont miss her. If wkdays neber see each other we will miss each other so much. It’s been so long since I last see her. I feel so like a burden to them. Coz of me, my parents have to pay so much for my tuition. Coz of me my aunt and cousin quarreled with my mother and she cried. I noe I’m a burden coz my mum oso say I stupid that’s why I need to go for tuition. Finally I noe where I stand in her heart. I’m just a stupid kid. Anything bahx I dun mind. Coz I noe I am. So many things have happened and I’m at lost. Really feel like I’m going to break down soon if all these continue to carry on. my aunt even sent me a four pages msg. and I read till I cried. I didn’t mean to let her be heartbroken de. I noe they are scare that I will do sth stupid. I hope I wont too. Coz I really dunno what will happen as the days go by. I noe I’m a emo kid. Whatever. Say what you like.
I really dun have the courage to listen to what you have to say to me. Since you alrdy said that I will be bloody jealous so I really dun feel like knowing. But I wan to noe it. I’m struggling. I’m sorry I hurt you once and again. I’m sorry I broke all my promises. I really hope nth goes wrong. Coz there’s still 15 more days to go. I have got so many things to write but suddenly nth came into my mind. i love you.