i'm tired. i dun wan tuition anymore. i have just join tuition at aunty cindy there and just one lesson i'm alrdy feeling tired. two and a half hours! today 3hours! tmr still have!! wth. who can survive liddat? i still got sch activity leh. today i will be practically studying from 9am to 9.30pm! can die lor. even my cousin quarrel with my mother how can let me study for so many hours. she still scare i will go commit suicide! LOL. i wont la! she neber even ask me how would she noe whether i am tired or not. she just keep saying: no la she can take it de. neber even ask how would she noe i can take it. of coz i cant take it. which idiot can take it lor. crazy. and my sis is away for camp and i'm so happy!! coz i dun need to see biasness anymore. but she will back tmr. sian.

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i dun feel like blogging anymore. once you have been to jail, nothing seems interesting alrdy. the feeling totally suck. no freedom and everything. can anyone understand? i dun think so. i noe my results suck to the core. only my hmt from f9 i went up to b4. cant anyone see that? whatever la. fan zhen all they see is just a sucker standing right in front of them. living zombie, breathing but empty inside. i will rather die den be that. everything isnt as easy as ppl think. my smile hides a thousand tears.

blogger finally can use le. but i dun feel like blogging anymore. my life seem so lifeless now. i have been sick for 5days alrdy. when will i get better? 39.6 that's the highest fever i ever got. how i wish it had burn my brain so i will be a dummy now. so sadistic. i wan to slp. been everyday for dunno how many hours. if i can slp and dun wake up that will be good. my head hurts. everywhere hurts.

one who doesnt noe how to love

one who doesnt noe how to care

an idiot who doesnt noe what's love

a sucker who take love for granted

that's me, michel ang.

i'm sorry!

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shimin cheer up! i dunno what to say but just to tell her to be happy!

this morning sat at the busstop wait for amanda and kailing and i saw ben kor. LOL. i was studying my ss and suddenly he called my name. i was like so shocked. and after sch i saw ynez at ws! ahh. my penguin i missed her so much. hahas. sian.

tu ran hen xiang ku. i dunno why. it's been so long since i last cried. mayb except for that day where nobody except both of us noe. everything is piled inside me. i dunno what i am doing is right or wrong. coz when i dun lend ppl say i wont even help my friend. when i lend my friend say i'm harming her. but i dunno. really dunno. and i have alrdy lend it so i shouldnt think so much. =/ but i'm still so unhappy.

Ytd went with Eileen, Amanda and siling to celeb beloved eileen’s bdae! Before siling came, me and Eileen went into Fox to try on a shirt. It is so nice! But so ex. Hahas. we were hiding in the fitting room and taking pics. So funny can. After that we went to Fish &Co. LOL. The Eileen tay is still as crazy and take everything that caught her eyes. Even signboards she oso wan take. Hahas. den we went to cs to buy siling’s gift box and my balloon! Winnie the pooh! Poot!! The balloon in the end flew into the sky! Waste my $9.45. ahh! My baby cousin was like “ jie jie why you neber hold the balloon tight tight?” and I didn’t noe how to ans. We took the nicest neoprints ytd! All those in the past was like bleah. Hahas. and after that I had to go coz of Krsytal baby bdae party! Hahas. she’s so cute!
I’m so unhappy. Why do they treat them so nicely? Why are they so bias? Just bcoz one is their daughter and another is their god daughter and I’m nth to them? Even the smallest thing they can be so bias. I’m not trying to say that just bcoz I didn’t get the choco. I mean I dun wan it la. But they like not obvious. I noe I’m not the prettiest one coz my sis is, I noe I’m not the cleverest one coz my cousin is. I’m just nobody special. Why try so hard to be special? Why must I do so much just to show them? I’m not trying anymore. sometimes they really dunno what they said and what they do really hurt me. I noe my cousin understand but she didn’t say anything. But at least she tried to do sth. Coz she shared it with me. So I shall be selfish and finish the whole stupid mango with my cousin only! Mango cheer up my day! ^^ so I shall not be so unhappy anymore. ignore them for the rest of my life. anything that happens doesnt matter coz i noe he will always be there for me.
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