sian. ytd night too early slp le today so early wake up. but today no tuition!!! i'm alone at hm again just like last night. but i have got used to it. i hate it! stop calling me kuku malu. it's lame. sorry eileen and cs! i noe both of you really very concern bout me. i'm sorry.

i'm sorry for everything i have done. i caused you so much unhappiness. sorry!! i still dunno why you choose me. but the impt thing is you chose me! hahas. and i'm so happy! i love you lots lots lots!! hahas. and i will for the rest of my life!

65 more days!

sain! i have got nothing to do! just feeling so hot. the weather is killing me soon. how can i survive? omg. today i so guai. i did finish my compre within less den a hour. bcoz su scold me and i finish it! hahas. so guai. sian. i really pity her so much. she was like looking at her ring and suddenly cry. den took off her ring and stuff it into her bag. how could he do that lor? he i sa useless bum. but when she came back and couldnt find her ring she was like searching frantically for it. useless de man. just like today i on the bus heard a conversation. that guy got together with the girl by "accident". what did they treat relationship as? crazy ppl! whatever. also not my business. everyday seem to get so boring now. sian. i love shimin so much!! coz she gonna marry me nxt time if no one wants me. hahas. xDD

60 more days!

practical today went well i guess. i 7.35 reach coz ms lee say 8 start. den in the end she 9plus den cm! coz that leonard neber tell us she change to 9! rawr!! sellick nic yitian and me sit outside fnn room like so long! sian. the char kway teow i forget put salt! ms lee say my mee siam beri nice!! woots. my satay and chicken wing is the best! muahaha. sian leh. dunno when can see him again le. haix. miss him so much!

Those words.
That’s what I got for being concern.

omg!! i am so jealous! jealous jealous jealous!!! my heart now is filled with jealousy. and that's bad. coz i cant concentrate on doing my own things!!! rawr! so sad leh. haix. i seriously dun have faith in myself. haix haix. i these few days kept dreaming bout her when i dun even noe her. just dun like her la. i noe they really nth de but just cant help feeling that way. sian. what am i doing??! i'm scare, i'm sad, and i'm lost.

Friday the 13th. I am so happy. Hahas. whatever. Just now went to tm with my aunt and sis. And we bought mac for bin kor. Den the cashier is a fat guy. And he gave my sis 6 packets of chilli even without my sis asking him to. Omg. She’s is so fated to be with fat guys. LOL. I am not trying to say anything bout fat ppl but just that my sis always got fate with them. We were laughing all the way back hm. I limped with my swollen leg. Wah very pain leh. Actually tmr wan go see doc de but got tuition! And the clinic only open in the morning! Rawr! Ohh I add danny in friendster le. His pic all so act cute de. Hahas. and he is my senior!! Omg.
I am so proud we got silver. But oso sad la. But we really did our beri best alrdy. jia you ^^
I miss my baby so much!! Lots of love.

danny is so cute! his voice is so so cute. cant stand him. although today he did sth really beri bad but i guess he did it coz he cares. i respect him.

i noe you care but what you said really hurts. i dun wan to let go. but if you really cant stand it let go. sometimes when i see other couples i felt so happy for them. actually i'm just jealous. coz they got time to see each other everyday. i'm sorry i didnt have time for you. but i really care bout it. mayb you think i dun but i really do. you are impt in my heart. bcoz of you i noe what's call happiness. thanks for being there for me for the past 9mths. i hope you will be there forever. i really hope. i want to see you.

tmr syf le i'm seriously very scare! even good bands got silver. =/

do your best!

72 more days! i love you.

You knew that he cares for you yet you said so many things to hurt him. You knew it yet you never use your brain to think even before you talk. When are you going to learn? It’s been so long le cant you just learn how to talk properly without hurting people’s feelings? Are you dumb or what? How dumb can I be? Why did I do all those things?
It always hurt to know that when you did something for someone special he/she doesn’t appreciate it. It’s been exactly three months since your birthday den you opened my present for you. It doesn’t matter. This is the first time of my 15years of living did I bought you a present and I went all the way to eastpoint to buy it. Yet you do not appreciate it. Even if it’s ugly do you have to let me know it? I have always tot that it’s the thought that counts. Dun worry. I will never ever buy another present for you. I deserve this. Since I didn’t consider his feelings I guess people also wont consider my feelings. So that’s it.
Danny and Candice are so cute! Danny de voice is damn act cute. xDD I hope I can gain something out of this whole motivation talk. If not I will be like wasting 39hr there doing nothing. Jia you!! Just three more days to syf. We can do it de!
74 more days.

thank you shimin, vannesa and eileen! although you all didnt noe what happened but you all stood there and comfort me all the time! thanks! love you all so much! i guess after so long, everything will be fine. you all made me smile afterall. but i am bruised! with shimin's pocking and vann's banging on my head, i am injured! today didnt really study. sian. wasted my time there bcoz we met shimin and vann. crazy ppl. shimin was hiding in a corner eating her waffles. den blame us for buying foods which caused her to have stomachache. whatever. it will be fine. but i cant go back to slp! sian. 75 more days.

LOL. imagine thur i dun need go sch so early! cool. 9.30 den report to sch. muahaha. aint eileen jealous?? mr surin ytd came down to band room to negotiate with us. it;s either we go sch on thur den study halfway cm for band or we cm late for sch. obviously we chose cm late for sch. hahas. but then mon tue &wed we have to go sch at 6.45am and have band till 8! adam khoo's fault la. have to go for adam khoo's motivation talk for three3 days!! from 8am to 9pm. rawr!! how long is it?? whatever! good luck everyone! we can get the gwh de!! hi5^^ one more week and everything will be over!! andand thanks jianjun for your honey lemon! two bottles. LOL. waste your money. i will be okie by mon i hope! so i wont play halfway and keep cough cough cough. hahas.

andyboh suck! i think as he gets older his brain got all rusty. he doesnt teach as well as he used to. and he dun think b4 he talk. how dumb can he be? me sitting at the busstop??! his eyes cock de.

my hse is like so quiet. everyone is slping. LOL. coz we woke up at 5 this morning. so so tired. i guess i am off to slp too. hahas. mayb tmr going church with cousin.

i miss my swtheart so much!! xDD

78 more days!

sian!! i am so tired. how blur can i be. i actually forgot to bring my phone out today. rawr! hahas. i put it on my bed and i didnt even see it. LOL. i felt so weird without it. tmr 6.45am must reach sch!! ahh! got band so early in the morning. i wan slp de lor. tmr 9 den start sch call me so early go. rawr!! hahas. sian. syf coming le. i'm scare. i changed place le. mobody wanted to sit with him. why must i be the one? i mean dun so bad lor. it's just that he seldom talk to me so beri sian. hahas. but now got su and luiting behind jiu more noisy le. but it's damn hot!!! and i am so far away from kailing and shuhui! =/
this is so cool!
The reason you never cross my mind
is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you
is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you
is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left
is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you
is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you
is because I would do everything foryou.
The reason I chose my life
is because YOU ARE MY LIFE.

Yesterday went lib with beloved Eileen to study amaths! And I didn’t tot that we will be able to study but we actually did! We did quite a lot. although she was crapping bout her cousin and his ex who was sitting nxt to us. she talked damn loud and i think my face was thrown to dunno where. It will be good if we every sat go study! LOL. Sian. My cousin even doubt that I go study! She said it was a miracle! Rawr! Hahas. today is April 1st and I have been using my phone for exactly one year. This is the longest phone I have used. Coz my mother loves n73 so now she neber change phone le and I dun get to use new phones. Today went with cousin to parkway! So tired. Walked for the whole day. and we were admiring those really cute children’s clothes saying which one our child will wear nxt time. I’m just too tired now. 83 more days! I miss you so much. Falling deep deep in love.