please have some faith in both of us. i will neber like anyone in school. believe me! but seriously i am scare that you will like some other girls. FAITH is all i need now. i need confidence too!! i need air to blow louder! i need patience to teach them! i need them to listen to me!! i wont give up hope. i tried my best to control my feelings alrdy. but outside band i started crying again. if only i can stop crying everything will just be fine. i am thinking too much alrdy. cant stop myself. i really feel i am a bai chi sometimes. i really cant stand the sight anymore. why is it that it's always us who are giving in? what wrong did we do to deserve all these? i mean they cant be so bad as to call us wait for so long bahx. stood ther like stone waiting for them. haix. will it stop? i hope to go back to the past where all of us are loving each other so much.