i dun think i can hold on anymore. i cant see the light shinning in front of me. it just seem to me that even if i let go nobody will care. why should they even care? like what chelsea said. they need me. but i dun think so. nobody will. so what if only one1 person care? i noe i should be happy that at least one1 person still care but i just dun feel like holding on. just now after the meeting i was busy thinking well i noe the leaders are stressed. but i am too. what did they expect me to do. it's just 74 more days. i dun think i can do it. our aim is the gold with honours. althought they say it doesnt matter what we get i noe it does. but the main prob is we cant unite. it doesnt feel like one1 family. i wanted to hold on tight like i have promised but i just cant hold on anymore. it hurts to see these. i need you here with me. but you doesnt seem to care bout the hurt i am going through so it doesnt matter. i just wish that everything will go away soon. and that i can see the light in front. i wish. ben wrote these song. i find it meaningful lor. it seriously describe my feeling.

This darkness covers me
i feel so scared and alone
I wonder how and wonder why
Each day as i walk my path in life
And was wondering
Can the light be found

This pain that is cutting through
This unbearable, scary feeling
How i wish to find someone
to remove this pain and
Give me this love i longs

Can someone please help
Can someone love me

I met this person
He gives me love
I wonder how this feeling
makes me feel so loved
I wanna dwell forever
in Your loves and
Your presence
Please love me
for eternity
and forever

by: ben.