sometimes i really wander what has to me ever since i took over this position. i have been feeling stress rught from the start. but no one knows. cause i hid my feelings too well. no one understand. i know i should be fierce. but when i started scolding ppl they sae i dao. mayb what chelsea say is right. dun care bout what others say. i finally understand what all my seniors had gone through. to think that i have been so childish as to get angry with them. i have grown up now. i dun think i can take it anymore. not like i can teach the sec2s to listen to me. they just wont listen. what can i do? someone pls help me! i cant go on liddat. if only i never take up this position. it all started bcoz of me. bcoz i cant blow well. bcoz i cant teach well. bcoz i cant bond the section well. the seniors all saw wrongly. i dun have that potential. can i give up? i promise chelsea not to. but i cant carry on. she said the section needs me. but it doesnt seem so to me. even when i am not there, they can still survive well with jj. i'm sorry jj. ytd i wasnt there with you to bear the scoldings.