i will not hide my feelings from now onwards. if i am happy i show it. if i am sad i show it. of i am angry i show it. i dun care what other think anymore. what they wan say is their own problems. i dun care! i feel that the mountain is piling inside me and blocking my light. i cant see why i am facing all these. i cant see anything in front of me. i just cant. i guessed what cs ytd said was right. how will i cope with so many things. with relationships, studies, band &O level. i oso dunno how am i going to cope. i just wish that i am strong enough to bear all these responsibilities. i really hope so. if only i can. i am trying to have more hope. but i dun think it is helping. like what jj said must ren. i have ren for all these one yr plus le. what did they expect me to do? ytd de rehearsal was bad. clar scetion so big but cant hear a single sound. i alrdy blow beri loud le. if they neber help blow louder how are the judges going to hear us. it's my fault for not being strict enough. haix.

later my dad going for his company's dinner &dance. so cute! they having a play Flower Wood Blue ( hua mu lan) LOL.

dad: where are all my bing (soldiers)?

soldier: orh pi se( officer) here are the bing (take ice).

dad: do you resepct me? i say where are (soldier not ice)!

soldier: sorry

dad: sorry your father ar?

soldier: sorry sir!

punishment

dad:go to the wall and kiss it.

soldier ran to the wall, kiss and came back.

dad:did i call you to come back? go back and kiss the wall.

i cant imagine! it's so funny! hahas.