sad sad &sad. what am i going to do now? today took bus17 go hm. the bus driver smiled at everyone who board the bus. most of the ppl had sour expressions on their faces before they get onto the bus. butbut, once they step up, everyone was smiling. andand, when i got down he said byes. i guess this is the most someone can do for the people he don't know. that's what i need seriously. a smile. all i wanted was for someone to care for me, to understand me. for someone to give me a smile everyday. why is it so difficult. aint humans greedy. sometimes i wish i was a kid, pure &innocent. sometimes i wish i was an adult, mature &free. but now i really wish that i wasnt even born into this world. that's all i ask for now. it isnt too much to ask for. but if i stop, the world will not stop for me. if i stop, nobody will stop for me. i'm soon ggoing to go into depression if this carries on. i dont wanna give up. that's what you tell me. but it just seem that i should. i just cant do this anymore. everyone &everything. i have been with this prob for one yr alrdy. can i just open my hands &let go? am i being selfish? but they dun even care bout how i feel, why should i care? hold on tight or let go? ytd went to the lib to borrow 8bks!! so many. i have started reading le. TMD! my sis de phone kena confiscated by my mother, blame herself for using too much. fcuk her la. she dunno go tell my mother what sia. just now my mother say wan confiscate mine too. cb! her phone gone doesnt mean she has to do that to hai me right. i neber ever want to talk to her anymore. shit! my cousin ytd asked me one question. what would you do if your best friend broke your heart?i didnt noe how to ans &asked for her ans. her ans was : i will still be her friend! so cool. to forgive &forget.so you shall not fill my heart with hatred. my heart can only fill one person. &it's definitely not you. so i shall not be angry or upset with what you do. you are forgiven.I don't know why i miss you so much.
You left me with nothing,
nothing but the question Why.
Your face,your voice,your smile,your laughter,your touch.
I'm missing it.
I'm missing you.
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