As i sit and daydream I can see you in my mind I wonder when i can be yours really in the heart I love you deep down in my heart. are we drifting further and further away? i dun wanna lose you. i say it's all ok and everything is fine. but i hold a secret, behind this crooked smile. i'm not alright. i'm hurting too badly to understand, acting like i'm happy and putting on an act. being watched day by day knowing the pressure is worse i feel like i have to mess up just to feel normal. sometimes i just don't want to be here. i sometimes wish i could close my eyes and everything would be better and there would be no more reasons to cry i know if i run, my heart will break more. no matter how much i try to cover it up, it will hurt worse than it did before. how can i trust that if i turn to you, my pain will be healed. can i know i will be alright and can i know that you will be my shield. i'm not alright and i don't want to live my life hiding and pretending i'm just fine when the truth is i'm dying inside. what a grand thing to be loved.
